Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
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8:45 pm
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As i am becoming less and less acitve everyone else is becoming more active.
It sucks.
Ah weelllity.
I need to do the theme for the labeled ones.
It involves pictures of me and a fork.
I'm looking forward to this.
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Sunday, November 20th, 2005
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7:50 pm
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Thursday, August 11th, 2005
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7:29 pm - Friends Only
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i hurt myself so you can't
Sorry guys, my journal is officially going to be friends only.
If you've been deleted off my friends list and would like to be added back on, comment to be added.
Thanks
lucky_star_xx
&hearts
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4:51 pm - Swollen Tears
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Afternoon.
It seems like i've dont enough crying to last me a lifetime during the past two days.
I cried last night while i was talking to my mum.
I cried while i was trying to get to sleep.
I cried when I woke up.
And then I went to see my Nana.
I walked into her room and she was in bed.
I've never seen her in bed before.
Shes always been sat in her chair by the window staring at the wall.
It scared me.
She was lying there looking so helpless.
Her bed has big wooden barriers around it to stop her from falling out.
Which is kinda pointless because she cant move.
She was just lying there.
I remembered the pictured of me and her that I'd put on here a few days ago, and I just burst into tears.
I remember how beautiful she was - never really good looking, but beautiful asll the same.
She was so well dressed, so manicured, so classy.
And now shes a forgotten, drooling mess.
Do you want to know what happens to her?
Slowly she forgets everything, until the day she dies, she forgets how to live.
She cant walk.
She cant talk.
She cant feed herself.
Shes going back in time, and shes past the stage of a new born baby.
Eventually she wont be able to chew or swallow.
And you know what they do when that happens?
They starve her to death.
Which, at a guess, takes about 3 weeks.
They starve her to death.
current mood:  blank
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1:04 pm - //hate//love
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Morning.
Feeling the same as last night.
Tired, shitty.
You know the deal.
11 Days till my birthday.
Yay.
I think this is the first time that I'm not actually excited about my birthday.
Its going to be crap.
current mood:  crappy
current music: No so fuck off asshole.
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Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
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6:43 pm - I hurt myself so you cant
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Afternoon.
I'm so tired you dont understand.
Yesterday I slept at Laurens and had masses of fun!
It was the weirdest combo of people ever...Lauren, Tara, Liz and me.
Great fun though.
I know have a bracelet saying "moob" and Liz and Lauren have the same one!
Will hates me.
I dont know, maybe he doesnt, but it feels like he does.
I'm going on holiday (not to Mexico now, to St Lucia) this sunday, I dont want to, I'm not looking forward to it and I'd rather stay at home.
My eyes are heavy and I want to cry.
I hate this.
I'm sick of this livejournal.
Maybe you wont see me here for a while.
I'm sick of you all knowing how I'm feeling.
I'm sick of everything.
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Monday, August 8th, 2005
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11:25 pm - Dont stop doin that thing you do, Your sweet love is makin me high
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Evening my children.
I hope you are all well.
I am off to sleep in a few short moments for 3 reasons.
1) No one decent is online to stay awake for.
2) No one is entertaining me byt replying to my texts.
3) You are all prats.
Anyways, night.
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Sunday, August 7th, 2005
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4:18 pm - Summer Rain
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3:08 pm - Faith
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Everyone must go download this song now.
And if you dont, then please go and dig out the album from your mothers cds.
( I gotta have faith )
current mood:  funky
current music: George Michael - Faith
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12:33 pm - I'm back! Bet you didnt miss me!
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Morning..or afternoon...or whatever.
I'm hungry..and I want my pizza so I'm going to be quick (or try..)
So on Friday I went to Wills housee and Will almost got crushed in between a fire engine and a bus...silly boy!
Will had a hair cut and its soo cute!
Hehe!
Anyways, so Wills parents are so nice, his mummy is sooo cute!
And his little brother was really grooveh.
Looks nothing like Will...and is kinda small...so yeh, looks nothing like him!
When I got there Will, Jonty and I went for a walk to put Wills babysitting ad (which is so totally lying) in the post office window..but they were closed because they knew Will was coming, so we rented a dvd instead.
And then Will took us to this lil beachy thingy, which involved trying to get through huge scry planty things and getting stung by thingys along the way.
But that was fun and Will and Jonty got shitty green water on them...
Deary me.
We went home, had dinner and watch Without a Paddle which was really funny.
And then we went to sleep...
And in the morning we had to go to Morrisons so they put me on Wills dads bike (omg, I havent been on a bike in years, i swear i have totally screwed up my ass riding this bike) and we went to Morrisons..
Erm...and then we got back and had lunch.
And then Wills mum, Will, Jonty and meee went to Tockwith Show and looked at chickens because Jonty wants to buy chickens...
And then we came home.
And Mum and Dad came to pick me up.
The End!!
I love Will!
Now for my pizza...
current mood:  hungry
current music: Nah.
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Thursday, August 4th, 2005
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8:58 pm - I've got some scattered pictures lying on my bedroom floor, Reminds me of the times we shared
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I'd been looking through pictures of my as a baby, and there were come with my Nana and it really upset me.
I wish she still knew who I was.
( Why did you take her away? )
current mood:  sad and alone
current music: Naahh.
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8:51 pm - Stressed...and its the summer holiday.
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I feel really pissed off today.
Its one of those days where I really need to either...
a) scream
b) slap someone
c) cry
You know that feeling, where you wake up in the morning, and you just dont want to be awake because you know its going to be a bad day, and you want to sleep until tomorrow when it will all be better because it will be tomorrow?
You dont know?
Well fuck off, this is my journal and my feeling, so I dont care if you dont understand.
I feel like who ever I've spoken to today, I really havent got through to.
Like theres a wall blocking what I'm saying.
And no body understand what I mean.
And also, I have no friends.
I could only think of 5 people I wanted to ome round tomorrow, two couldnt come and then it was just really awkward.
I could think of no one else who would actually want to come to my house.
Ah well, i dont need you.
I take that back, I really really do.
( This is how I feel right now...and yes, this is me )
current mood:  aggravated
current music: Not in the mood.
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6:08 pm - Waste of a day
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Afternoon.
I'm pissed off.
So go away.
current mood:  Whatever.
current music: GO AWAY.
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Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
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10:03 pm - Give me the porn..
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Evening my pets.
I'M BORED OUT OF MY EAR AND I HAVE BEEN ALL DAY AND I THINK I'M GOING TO DIE IF I'M BORED ANY LONGER BECAUSE NO ONE IS ONLINE AND THERE IS NOTHING TO DO DAMN IT I'M SO BORED.
Yah, I'm bored.
Today I was meant to go into town, but I was in bed, so I didnt.
And lauren mentioned going in tomorrow, but i havent heard from her since so i dont know whats going on.
Called Matt - Woke him up, oopsy.
Called Kate - Switched off.
I'm going to go and top myself.
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Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005
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9:51 pm - Forgot to mention...
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...I might not be going on holiday because the hotel is closed due to the hurricane in Mexico.
It is hopefully re-opening on the 5th...we'll see.
current mood:  bored
current music: Am i beautiful?
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7:04 pm - Love is for losers, looks like i just lost.
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Mornin all.
Today I went into town as it is jossssshyyys birthday.
Whoop!
Happy Birthday Josh!
(20 days till mine...)
Yeh anways so we went into town.
And Will dumped me!!
But asked me back out again =D
Haha, it wasnt serious, he was joking...i hope...ooer!
I miss Will.
Neeer neeeer.
I saw Matty today!
Whoop Matty is back!
And also rather tanned (grrr)
With sexy shoes (grrr)
And sun glasses that are like mirrors (grrr)
And this whole look that says "haha guys i'm too good for you"
Well neeeeeeer.
current mood:  Nerd!
current music: Meep.
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Monday, August 1st, 2005
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10:46 pm - OMG SHE STOLE ME!
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10:37 pm - Who knew katie was this sexy?
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3:10 pm - Its the morning after the night before
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Evening.
I've been extreamly lazy this morning.
I only just at lunch.
I only just got dressed.
Ah well, they say is still young..sorta...
I am bored out of my nose and i needed something to cheer me up.
If you are in this sort of mood too...please look below...
( Come forth my young ones... )
current mood:  chipper
current music: Radio/Video
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Sunday, July 31st, 2005
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9:21 pm - Love keeps you alive
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Howdy one and all.
Today I went shopping with the family.
Bought William a suit for 6th form, fun fun as always, then he dissapeared, so I had some fun sale shopping with my mummy!
I got a really nice fcuk t-shirt, a nice animal one and a short (ooer) girly (ooer) hooch (ooer) skirt (ooer!)
I dont know what came over me with the skirt thing, but you know, sometimes my gender makes decisions for me.
Anyways, big brother calls!
Love you alllllll xxxxx
current mood:  content
current music: Meep.
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